I so worry about how we are going to get past this bad time. I know we can if he really wants to but I sometimes have serious doubts. There are times I wish I could not care but damn it, I do. I try so hard to be cheerful and not let him bring me down but then I see his empty ring finger or try to have fun with him and just feel like I am totally invisible to him. Every time he does give me attention, I feel it is so fake and unfeeling. How do I keep going on like this? I had a friend say to me that she couldn’t live in a loveless marriage. Well, that is not my plan. I read something once that talked about people that stay together vs breaking up and 7 years later. The people that stayed together were happier in general. After 19 years, I cannot just give up on my partner.

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