“Life can either be something you embrace or something that you hide from” I used to hide, now I embrace

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The only thing standing in your way towards happiness is you; no one else is allowed to set up limits for you but you, nor there should be. No matter what kind of problems you’re dealing with, how old you are or where you live, you deserve to be happy – it’s as simple as that. It’s time to face the fact that you’re in control of your future, and finally do something about it!

  1. Give up unresolved relationships – Every person in the world has their past, and that’s something you can’t change. But, it’s not like you can’t deal with it and move on, right? A huge part of the past that’s dragging us down is usually related to romantic relationships. It’s hard on all of us to accept a certain fact, and stop wondering how all that effort has gone to waste. In order to make room for…

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This morning on the way to work, the traffic was stop and go. I was stopped right past an intersection. When I looked in my rear-view mirror, I thought the gal coming up behind me was going to hit me but she stopped in time. I was relieved. Just a moment later, I  heard a loud crash. I looked up again and saw car parts flying. I saw the car behind me get hit. The car behind her went up pretty high. I thought she was going to be pushed into me. While this was happening, the cars in front of me moved so for a brief split second, I considered going on to work but I just couldn’t do that. If  there had been injuries, I never would have been able to live with myself so instead, I picked up my phone. I called 911 and got out of my car. There were three cars in the accident. Two of the drivers got out of their cars immediately so I checked on the other one, the gal behind me. She was not injured but she was very shaken up. She had her sixteen month old baby in the back seat. He was perfectly fine. He was very happy and playing in his car seat. I quickly checked on everyone else then went back to her. I tried to calm her down and stayed until the police and fire department showed up.

Things could have been much worse. I am sure two of the cars were totaled. The driver that caused the accident was driving  a dealer car from her work. The other was a young man that had never been in an accident before. The gal’s car behind me was the only one that was drive-able after the accident. I am so glad that I didn’t have to use any of my first aid training besides calming them down and making sure the scene was secured and safe. We were lucky that there was a tow truck driver right behind them. He blocked the traffic with his truck so none of us had to direct traffic. I did let the one gal know how to reach me in case she needs to.

All this reminded me that we need to never take things for granted and how things can change in an instant. I was very lucky that she wasn’t pushed into me. Everyone was lucky that they weren’t hurt.

I have been reminded of why I fell in love with ex-bf. I have told him that I am not just jumping into a relationship with him again. I told him that I am scared to.

Last week, we went out for Halloween. I absolutely love Halloween and he doesn’t. He still dressed up. We were Danny and Sandy from Grease. We went out for dinner and then for drinks. We discussed when to go in for the night and he took my hands and told me that he knows how important it was for me so we could stay out as long as I wanted. I was staying with him that night. It was the first time in over a year that I was staying with him. I was looking forward to snuggling and his company. We have always been so good together.  When we got back to his place, he drew me a bath and lit candles. While the water was running he massaged my feet. He had James Taylor playing. When I got in the bath, he massaged my shoulders, back, and neck and then he read me love poems.

Damn him. I thought that I was over him. I realized that night that I am not. I felt like I had gone home. I am not jumping into a relationship or commitment with him. I told him last night that I trust him with everything except  my heart. He wants to know how to fix that. I told him time. It took us over a year to break up. We have been apart for 15 months and it is just like nothing changed. I am so comfortable with him. This is going to be interesting. I am ready for the ride and to where it goes. I wonder if he can really truly love me this time. I know he loves me but can he get to where he needs to be to stay with me?

Never Let Go: A Philosophy of Lifting, Living and LearningNever Let Go: A Philosophy of Lifting, Living and Learning by Dan John

My rating: 4 of 5 stars

I was given this book by a power lifter friend of mine. We talked a lot about fitness when we were hanging out and when he moved away, he thought I would enjoy the book. It really was interesting with lots of discussions about different fitness programs, diets, etc. I got a lot from it. One of my favorite things was “If it is important, do it every day. ” That actually pertains to all aspects of life and I am fully embracing this. I also think I may do the one lift a day option occasionally to change things up. I guess this was a book of essays written by the author. When I was looking something up, I found one of the chapters online.

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This article in the Chicago Tribune is very interesting and I love how things are put so I had  to share. I had never thought about comparing a car or other belongings to our bodies. I know that I love to get dressed up and look nice. I do this mostly for me. It is nice to get a sincere compliment but not to get cat called. I give sincere compliments to people all the time, both male and female. It is obvious it is appreciated. I own my body. I am proud of my body and I like the way I look. I should be able to dress any way I want without fear or shame.

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2014, My second Comic Con. When I went to the first one, I really didn’t want to go but took my kids. This one, I was actually pretty excited. I was excited about celebrities that were coming. I was looking forward to dressing up. I have always loved Halloween. As I got older, I found that I loved theater and then in this town I live in, we have another annual event where people dress in costumes. I had two costumes planned for this Comic Con. One was a Steampunk Costume and the other was Catwoman.

I used to look forward to watching the original Batman when I was a kid after school. I honestly don’t know if I ever watched it at home. I remember watching at a friends house regularly. I didn’t read comic books. My mother wouldn’t have thought they were appropriate. I ended up loving Batman and Robin and, of course, Cat Woman. She was such a fun character. At this Comic Con, it was an anniversary of the show and they had all three of the actors there-  Adam West, Burt Ward, and Julie Newmar. I thought that was pretty cool and decided to go to the panel and see what they had to say. I had very little money to spend at Con and it costs extra money to meet the actors usually and always if you want photos or autographs. At Denver Con, the money is actually a fundraiser for an education project but I am a poor single mom.I had no intention of meeting any of these three. That all changed during the panel. All three of them came out on the stage and Julie just exuded sex. I don’t know that I have ever been  in the physical presence of someone that SEXY and it was her 80th birthday and I am not attracted to women. After that panel, I HAD to meet that woman.

I was dressed as cat-woman, I was less than a year after my divorce and still not really mentally healthy. I waited in line having no idea what I would say to her but she made it so easy. She looked at me and said “Now, what do you do for a living?” I told her that I worked at a doctors office and she replied “With that body?” She had me walk for her and then had me come behind her table to get my picture taken with her. She was so good for my ego on that day. Here was this gorgeous woman that just exuded sex telling me that I looked awesome. After years of feeling ugly and like nothing, I had no idea how much I needed that. The picture does not show her personality. She was so amazing in person. I am so glad that I went up to meet her. IMG_7300-2085(rev 0).jpg

I shared a piece on October 8th about the shootings that keep happening in our country in Thoughts on Vegas, and Why Men Keep Doing This – Be Yourself . This was a very interesting read on men in our society and why they keep doing these atrocious things. It also mentioned a few things to read, watch, or join to learn more, grow, or fix things. One of them was a film The Mask You Live In . I watched this over the weekend and cried. It is so telling what we have done to our boys. How confusing it is to “be a man” in our world.

I saw my son so many times. He is so not a typical boy. He had two older sisters. He and the middle kid are so close. He would play dolls with her. She took tap and ballet so he wanted to take tap and ballet. He did that for three years. The first year at three, he was the only boy. The second and third year, he was joined by his best friend. They quit when the school closed. He started playing the violin at five. He also played flag football for three years. He enjoyed it but after the third year, he said he was done with football. He wanted to be a Bronco and the team was the Broncos that year so he reached his goal. When he started Kindergarten his favorite color was pink. He had the classroom bully tell him that he was not allowed to like pink. This same bully picked on him for years. I didn’t know about much of the bullying because my son never told us but the middle kiddo would tell us. He also had a couple of real good friends that always stood up for him. One was his girlfriend. She was so cute. She would threaten to beat up all the boys that picked on him. I am sure that didn’t help matters but she always had his back. They are still friends to this day. The other was his jock best friend. They are so different but are like brothers. As the years went on, my son became an avid reader, brain, reader, and very sensitive. In high school, he got into band and theater. My son has never been a stereotypical boy and is now finding his way as a man that doesn’t fit the stereotypical male in our society.

This film delves into what being a man is and how our society tries to stifle the “feminine” side of them.  We need to change the way we raise our boys and what we expect from them. There are men like my son. There are men like his best friend, the jock. They both are very sensitive young men and have been allowed to be this way due to their mothers. Both of them had fathers that are the more “macho” men that were raised to not show emotions. Not all men are as lucky as our boys. Many are still raised to not show emotions. Those men are damaged. They have difficulties in so many aspects of their lives, even if they don’t see it themselves. Many become lonely, angry, and unsatisfied in life. Many end up much worse- abusers, controllers, killers, etc. We need to let our boys be who they are and express their own interests and feelings. I think anyone that influences boys in our world should watch this film. I would love to hear your opinions on this film after you watch it.